Hello world! It’s 2012 and I’m still alive! That’s a good enough thing to be thankful about – don’t take anything for granted. The very fact that you are still breathing and healthy means you are better off than the sick, the dying and the dead.
These days, I’ve been trying to train myself in the art of formlessness – not taking anything personally at all.
This is a weakness in myself that I have been very much aware of – I take things personally all the time, and I use passion in my craft and pride in my work as some of my excuses.
Regardless of whether my excuses are real reasons or not, heck, it doesn’t matter. All I know is that taking things personally has hurt me emotionally and mentally, and all the reacting, anger, sadness, etc has caused much anguish and disruption in my life. I am very very tired from working in a pretty screwed up environment – politics, discrimination, and biasedness is rampant here and I need to grow immune to these. This is Darwin’s law – survival of the fittest – only organisms that are able to adapt to ever changing environments and not react negatively can survive in the long run and not become extinct.
So as my sole major New Year Resolution for 2012, I am setting myself the goal of Achieving Formlessness – being able to show no emotion in any situation, being able to stand strong and level-headed in the face of the strongest opponents and criticisms.
It’s painful to force myself not to be angry, upset, disappointed, etc in people and things especially since that’s the way I’ve been operating for the longest time, but I think the outcome would make me a stronger person and give me the strength to achieve greater heights in whatever I do.
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