This is my first corporate job and I really don’t know if every place is the same… same shit, different place… but I feel that the place I am in now is the most screwed up corporate environment ever.

Dysfunctional HR. Dysfunctional IT. No open communications. Lots of backstabbing and politics at all levels of the organisation. Departments all working in silos – everyone just wants to do their own thing and not care about cooperation or getting a great job done together.

As screwed up as you can imagine. Even my boss who worked in several organisations (some pretty screwed up ones by his account) feels that this is as bad as things can get.

Of late my pent up frustrations have been growing more and more. Fed up. Frustrated. Upset. Disappointed. Disillusioned. Demotivated. Angry. These are just some words to describe how I have been feeling these days.

On days when things are better, I really love my job. On some other days I feel like strangling people and throwing in the towel without notice.

When there are uncertainties or unhappiness, people prefer to beat around the bush, backstab and talk behind others’ backs instead of being upfront and talking openly to solve problems.

I hate how I have to bite my tongue, say that things are my fault and that “I will try to improve”, “I will reflect on it”, “I will learn”, etc when sometimes I am not exactly to be blamed.

I hate how people take binary views of things – you are either good or bad, you are either right or wrong, etc. When in reality things often fall in between.

I hate how often things are blown out of proportion out of personal agendas and grudges of people.

And I hate those power hungry people who would do anything to go up the ladder.

I know these things exist everywhere in every organisation and even if I start my own business I’d probably encounter some of these issues as well. But I think the degree to which these things exist in my current organisation is appalling.

Still, at the end of the day, I have tonnes of passion for the work I do and I know there are some perks to my job now. Just that there is a lot of space for improvement.

Sigh.

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